Life may not be the same as how it was for me before. Today, i am left with regrets, pain and disappointments. All for one human. A human who shattered me entirely, who damaged my thoughts, my emotions and my mental health. 

It not easy to regain my strength. I am distorted. I am most of the time angry today. I don't know why am I always angry these days. Angry over myself, my parents and my daughter. I don't like this anger because I feel that its eating me inside. I am afraid I may loose my truest self. I need to rediscover myself. I need to see what are my interests, how do i want to be and how can i mend my broken self.

I know that I need lots of space. I want to be alone to think, to be in my own company. Relax and re-evaluate myself to rediscover the inner me. How do I do that? Sometimes, I wish I had some money where I just want to check in to a hotel, sleep, eat and really relax and check out the same day. I just want some quiet time. Is that possible? Can I do that? Maybe I should. Take leave from work but tell everyone at home that I am working. Check in at some safe place and totally relax. cry if i have to. sleep as much as I can. shower. watch tv. sleep. check out and come back home.